Hi Steven. You’re a young boy with a girlfriend. For how long are you a couple now and how is it going?
Yes, we are a very happy couple, her name is Sarah, we’ve been together for over 3 years now. I’m actually at her house now. I don’t believe she has any idea that I have another side to me. I’m actually quite the dominant when I’m around her ?.
Steven
2002
Georgia USA
Ui, seems you’re very close. You call yourself a straight boy, but it seems you have some desires which doesn’t seem to be as straight as you call yourself. Am I right?
Hehe, I know you talk to lots of masochists … I am one myself, I love pain, and my fantasy stems from wanting emotional pain. In this fantasy I want to be with a very dominant man. And he would slowly involve himself in our relationship by controlling me and having me do things that would eventually cause a painful breakup… which would make room for a relationship that suits me better, a master/slave relationship where my only purpose is to serve men, something I’m sure you’re all too familiar with. And no, this fantasy is not very ‘straight’ lol.
Before we talk more about your desire to become a slave, we should talk a little more about your gay needs. When have you realized that you’re interested in men and do you have sexual experiences with guys?
Phew, talking about this stuff really gets me going lol. But yes, I call myself straight… but I only think about men sexually. I think the fact that I’m such a submissive at heart has a lot to do with it. Fucking others or ‘topping’ wouldn’t sit right with me… so I would rather stick to ‘bottoming’ and serving cock.
Which leads me to your other question, yes, I have sucked many cocks. I have friends who are on the swimming team, track team, and volleyball team with me. And its quite common for me to ask if I can practice sucking on them.? I’m very lucky to have them?.
That sounds more like I’m talking with a little gay fag boy than with a straight. Am I right, boy?
I like the sound of that, yeah I’d love to be known as a fag boy❤️ I think it fits me perfectly. Sarah probably wouldn’t be happy if she knew I was a fag boy though lol.
That I can imagine that she wouldn’t be happy. We’ll talk about that later. But first you’ve to tell us how it comes that you have started to sick dicks? Can you tell us about the first experiences with and what your friends think about?
My first time with another boy was actually from the first sport I played my first year of high school. It was easier for me to ask someone because the boys volleyball was so small, and so it was a lot easier to be alone with another boy. I remember it pretty well. His name was Zeke, and it wasn’t anything exciting, I literally just asked “can I try sucking you off?”, he asked if I was gay, I said “no I just wanna try”… he said ok, and I was on my way to becoming a fag. He was the only boy I sucked for several months, we remained friends, nothing more, and I eventually became brave enough to ask other boys… and I still haven’t been turned down, which feels good. And now, there are just a bunch of rumours about me, and lots of insecure guys awkwardly asking to suck me off, and I’m not in to that, so I always just say no to them.
But they like to get sucked by you? What do they say about your service and what kind of image do they have about you?
I’m told I’m good at it, and while I’m doing it, I get really good reactions, I love satisfying cocks??. I think they see me as a skinny athlete that cares more about grades than sports, and everyone who is on a sports team pretty much knows I love cocks. Besides, I wear pretty revealing stuff during/after practice and I don’t ever try to cover myself when I change. I think they know I’m a slut. Or maybe they think I’m just a weirdo?♂️.
I like good sluts, boy. You’ve told me that you’re too much a sub to fuck guys, but do you like to fuck your girlfriend and does she like you as a fucker?
I do fuck my girlfriend, and I am able to make her cum. But I dont enjoy it, and ive certainly never cum from fucking her. And she tells me im amazing, but I think that’s just because she wants to make me happy. I’m probably average at best, and I think the only reason I’m able to make her cum, is because im pretty big, and thick. Not because I have any skill.
So how important should your dick be in your future life?
Completely irrelevant… as cheesey as it sounds, I don’t want my genitals to be used for anything other than an easy way for my master to frustrate me, control me, threaten me, and inflict pain upon me. And ideally they’d be locked in chastity when my master hasn’t a use for them.
Oh, not only a fag boy but also a real pussyboy :)) ! Does your girlfriend really not know that she has fallen in love with a gay?
I don’t think so, although she did once discover two nude pictures of me that put my sexuality in question for a month or two.
You say that you want to become a slave and that your Master should separate you from your girlfriend. Is that really possible if you live with her, and how should that be realized?
I don’t live with her, I’m only at her house for a little while.. my classes start after lunch, so I don’t have to leave for another 2 hours. But I’m my fantasy, my Dom would simply tell me to do things that would slowly break her trust. And eventually maybe I’d be forced to do things like intentionally get caught fucking myself with a dildo, or maybe even get caught with a boy. I guess its up to the dog’s creativity to make it especially painful and memorable❤️.
So you want to hurt her? But you’re not man enough to do it by yourself?
Yes, I realize she also has a price to pay for my fantasy to come to fruition, but I suppose my Dom could choose to do it differently… but to be honest, I’m not really concerned with it. While I do love her, I crave pain – both physical and emotional – along with a life of slavery more than I love her, and I’d be willing to do anything to achieve it.
Maybe that makes me selfish, or a bad person, but the way I see it, none of my life will matter anymore when I’m a slave, but I will fell horrible for hurting her, and ill beg my Dom for permission to apologize to her, but to be honest, I hope he doesn’t let me.
It is not really fair to her, but an end of a love includes always pain. What kind of future life do you want to live? How should it look like?
I suppose it isn’t fair to her… but I can’t change who i am. I would like to simply spend most of my time in a cage. Only to be let out to be used in some way for my master’s enjoyment. I’m not picky… it’s really my master’s choice.
And for such a life you would be ready to give up all your freedom and liberties you have now as a cute boy who is studying?
Oh I don’t know if I’d call myself cute… but ill still take the compliment with a smile but yes… without a doubt, I’m definitely ready to give up everything for slavery.
Why do you think that this life will make you happier than the life you’ve now?
It’s in my nature… I can’t be pleased unless I please those above me, I can’t be satisfied unless I satisfy those above me. And if I can find someone who is genuinely pleased and satisfied by the act of hurting me, then I’ll truly be home… ya know? It’s just my place. I’ve tried many times to find another place, but I don’t fit, it doesn’t make me happy.
I understand that totally. But you know such a slave life includes also many moments you’ll not be happy with what your master wants. If you become a slave, your mood hasn’t any importance. You’ll also be a slave in moments you’re not in the mood, but you’ve to ve willing for whatever your Master orders. Can you really live with it?
Oh I’m sure there will be many moments where I regret everything, and I’m tired of suffering for my master, and want to go back to my life, but that’s exactly the pain I live for… and in the end I’ll be much happier than I ever could have been otherwise.
