I love exploring my sexuality

Sub Matty (19) gives an insight in his fetish life.

Matty

Sub/Bottom

19

5’10/ 177cm

130 lbs / 59 kg

Central Illinois, USA

sadOsam: How long have you already been living out your kinky side and how did you come to that?

Matty: I have been happily living on the kinky side of life for about three years. I started getting interested in it when I saw pictures of bondage while looking through porn; at first I felt a bit turned off by it…it seemed sort of strange to me but I became more and more interested in it. Eventually I really began to enjoy watching bondage/bdsm pornography and wanted to try it out for myself. I would tie my own wrists and use whatever dildo shaped item I had in my room at the time to pleasure myself. I really loved the way men looked in gear and I wanted to feel what it was like to be in a harness or in a sling. Eventually I met up with a guy who I would have sex with pretty frequently, and one day he suggested that we shake it up and try some restraints and a blindfold, I agreed. As soon as the cuffs were on and the blindfold went over my eyes I felt so excited, and feeling him touch me and not knowing where he’d be next or not being able to move was intense. Getting fucked while blindfolded is one of my favorite feelings, it feels so different and I quickly fell in love with it.

I also started collecting lots of toys as I got the money to, underwear (one of my favorite fetishes), and all manner of items that I began to use when I expressed myself sexually. I felt like vanilla sex wasn’t interesting enough to me, at least not with people I didn’t have a profound attachment to. I found a few people also interested in kinky sex through the internet and we met up and I learned a lot about the kink world, experimented with lots of different kinks and roles. I also learned that I loved to “show off” and I loved being naked or in gear having someone taking pictures of me or taking pictures of myself, leading to eventually posting them online and meeting tons of other kinky people, as well as meeting my boyfriend.

sadOsam: Whats especially important for you there?

Matty: To me, being kinky is part of who I am. To say to someone “I only participate in vanilla style sex” would be lying about my experiences and the kind of person I consider myself. I love exploring my sexuality, I think its such a raw part of who we are and when you put on some gear or a mask, people become different, they relax and show their nature. I’ve made so many connections from my sexual habits that have become amazing friendships and experiences, and some really amazing sex. Being kinky lets me be who I want to be, I don’t have to hold back and act tough when I want to seem weaker and just get worked over. There’s freedom in being kinky, expression that I think a lot of people deny themselves because they taboo this side of sexuality. I want to be free to be tied up with my ass in the air or cuffed to a sling with my eyes covered if I want to, and the kink community is more than happy to help. The community is also very open about helping people try new things, which is really amazing, seeing people ask me about what i’ve tried because they are curious is really warming.

I also really like the bonding that two sexual partners experience, especially in kinky situations where on person relinquishes control to the other and puts their trust and pleasure in their partners hands. I’ve formed amazing friendships from a few spanking and fucking sessions because we learned to trust each other. Kink also makes me feel safe, in a way. I can be who i want to be without being judged for it, and everyone involved is clear on each other’s boundaries and preferences.

sadOsam: Do you have special sexual and fetish preferences?

Matty: I generally like to participate in some form of restraint (rope, cuffs, chains, etc) as well as pup play, dom/sub roleplay, anal toys, gangbangs, and spanking. Being tied up and blind folded is so exciting and relaxing at the same time. I love it because I can stop resisting and let it happen which makes the experience so much more enjoyable. I love getting spanked, seeing my ass red and beat up is really sexy for some reason…and if they leave a handprint its even better. I’m very interested in pup play, I’ve been present when some friends were participating and I’ve done a lot of reading on it but I haven’t had a chance to really try it myself, so its something i’m really looking forward to! I’m a sub by nature, I love to please people and get pushed around a little, being a natural bottom helps with that as well. Though once and a while I like to be more dominant and take a top role, I think both roles are equally fun. Toying is a great way for me to relieve stress and some horniness, haha, it feels so much better to shoot a load with a big dildo in me and I like to see how much i can fit inside. Gangbangs/groups are really fun to me, sweating men and dicks everywhere just get me really worked up and I usually jump at the offer of a group party.

sadOsam: What kind of guys do you like?

Matty: I am really into grungy rocker type guys, I’m not sure if theres somewhere it stems from or not…I’m a big Rock/Alternative/Emo music fan so maybe from there, haha. Tattoos are a big bonus alongside a fit body, good ink on a man is one of my favorite things. I love a man with a tight ass and thick thighs, something about strong thighs just makes me hot under the collar. I love guys that are very calm and cool with a nice sense of humor and good taste in music, someone who’s really down to earth and really out there in the way they think. I also love a nerdy/kinky guy, I’m a massive nerd and play tons of video games so someone who can play World of Warcraft with me and then tie me up and fuck me right after is an A+++. I like guys who know what they want and aren’t afraid to say it either, no guessing games, if you want to fuck then tell me ;D.

sadOsam: What was your hottest experience until now?

You: The hottest experience i’ve ever had was the first time I went to a bath house in St. Louis. I went with a friend and was super nervous, i’d never been to any kind of place like that before and I wasn’t really sure what to think. I remember walking in and hearing the music and instantly heard people fucking somewhere and I kind of just forced myself to keep going I guess. Once I was undressed and in the towel I started relaxing a bit, and I was the only young twinky guy there that night I think, so I got a lot of attention when I walked into the showers. I realized I kind of liked it and I chose to walk around naked the rest of the night and I got fucked by more than one really hot guy that night, sucked enough dick to make my jaw sore for the next two days, and was covered in cum only half way through the night. I guess when I get comfortable I turn into a bit of a cum rag >_<. It was really fun to be naked and have a bunch of guys all over me and not feeling out of place.

sadOsam: Are there things/dreams you want to experience once?

Matty: I really want to be in a huge leather gangbang or to go to a leather bar sometime. Where I live there aren’t very many guys who would all get together and fuck like that, and there’s only one gay bar nearby and its forty five minutes away and thats a bit much for me. I’d love to walk into a bar and find some people who wanted to get it on and just have a night of fucking and stuff of that nature ;). I’d also really love to try pup play with someone, I want to find someone I can really relax with and try it out. Its also been a bit of a mission of mine to try fisting sometime, at least give it a try haha. I love jerking off to fisting videos and I just haven’t had the patience to stretch myself out, so I really need to work out the perseverance to do it someday and have an amazing time working my ass over like that.